In your present, individual state of consciousness we identify with the thoughts and emotions that appear in our mind, so we believe that we are a separate, illusionary person, an Ego.
A lot of us are not satisfied with what we are, and we would like to have a better and more beautiful personal history. That is why we create a mental image of our desired personal development..
In order to achieve the mental image we ourselves have created, we embark on a foolish game, as we attempt to bring our minds under our own control, and be the masters of our own development. Since we do not know the nature of the mind, this venture is destined to failure right from the beginning.
This game is foolish, since in fact one half of the mind attempts to bring the other half under control. Our mind itself deems our own mental image of our personal development good. At the same time, this half of the mind deems the other half bad, the one we wish to change. Mental images fight against each other, trying to overcome each other, using the weapons of selective perception and story fabrication. The struggle goes on, with changing luck, all through our lives. Sometimes we believe that we are making some progress, we are improving, and a few weeks, months or years later we drop into the abyss of despair.
A lot of us play this foolish game all through our lives, because we are unable to recognize the simple fact that a Mind is unable to overcome itself. We may, perhaps, with the utmost effort, suppress what we believe is bad in us. That is, however, just a virtual victory, leading us to virtual calm and personal development, because when our power declines, the suppressed forces break out again, destroying all the temporary results that we achieved previously, washing away the results of our personal development.
Nowadays, however, more and more of us begin to realize and experience that we are more than our minds, more that our thoughts and emotions, and the personal history these thoughts and emotions build up. Our attention is no longer completely engaged by telling our personal history and identifying with that personal history, and we become more and more sensitive to the deeper dimensions of our life. We also begin to notice the breaks between thoughts, and we begin to turn towards these gates leading beyond the mind.
In these breaks between thoughts, mind does not work, it is not there–it simply vanishes. What is left there is the alert Consciousness. If we are able to take roots in that alert Consciousness, we recognize that this watching alertness is tolerant with the mind and its operations. We shall see that there is nothing wrong with thoughts, nothing wrong with the operations of the mind. It is not necessary to struggle against the mind, as it is not an enemy, only an instrument that, without control, tends to function chaotically.
This tolerant, alert, watching attitude to the functions of the mind will give us the ability of stopping our thinking effortlessly. Once thinking has been suspended, the continuous stream of thoughts stops, the mind itself disappears and stops working.
Now we shall not seek our own identity in an identification with the mind, since we have found our real center, our real self, our alertly watching Consciousness. We will be aware that thoughts and the mind have not really disappeared, they are still there, only in a dormant state. Our attitude to thoughts and the mind will entirely change at that moment. We think when necessary, and we do not need the mind, we put it aside. The mind no longer dominates our life, it is not more than an obedient tool that we use or not use as we please.
That is when we realize how wonderful instrument the mind is, and now we are able to use it for its original purpose. And the purpose of the mind is to serve as a means of connections, to connect us to the world to each other. Through the mind, used with alert Consciousness, creative energies are released to the world, and create a wonderful harmony there.
The truth is that we are the embodiment of Life, we are born into this world as a result of a miracle, and later we are lost amidst the multitude of teachings and dogmas. After identifying with our beliefs and convinctions we forget who we really are, who the person born in us into the world in order to experience existence and get acquainted with all the teachings.
A sign of awakening is when we realize that the state when we identify with our Ego is of very low order, very poor, and there are more significant mysteries behind our existence.